I lied about last weekend, LOL

Pics of Logan are up!!

My baby boy was born on 7/11/09 at 11:10pm via C-section ate Medina General Hospital.

My water broke at 3:30 am on Saturday morning (I wasn't sure if it had truly broke, so I waited a little while to be sure!!), and we went to the hospital around 11am. We only spent about 2 minutes in triage because the nurse was like "oh yeah, no doubt, your water is broke." So from there we got settled into a room. Mr Dr. was actually our of town that weekend (just my luck!!), but the Dr. on call was a really great, really nice Dr. They decided to start me on Pitocin to start getting me dilated. They started an IV, or at least tried to in my left arm. The lady blew out a vein or something really bad, and there was blood everywhere, and my arm blew up into like a huge balloon. So a second nurse tried to get it started in my hand, on the same arm. No luck either. Finally a 3rd nurse got it started in my right arm. Unfortunately though, this meant the blood pressure cough had to go on the left arm with the blown out veins, and everytime that sucker blew up to take my BP it hurt like hell. Worse than my contractions! I still am completely bruised all over my entire forearm. After a few hours we decided to start an epidural. The pain wasn't so bad that I couldn't take it, but I was very nervous about getting the epidural itself, so they wanted to get it started before my contractions got too hard. I was basically a basket case during the epidural. Reading about the risks is scary, and trying not to move...I was like freaking out, because I am very ticklish and jumpy, and every time the anesthesiologist touched my back I would like jump a little!! But you aren't supposed to move at all!! Well, a few hours after that, they decided they needed to insert an internal monitor. If you don't know what that is/how it works, I will spare you the details and not explain. Well, by about 10-10:30pm they decided my water had already been broke for about 18 hours, and my Pitocin drip was pretty high, and I had only dilated 1 additional centimeter. So they told me the Dr. wanted to go ahead and do a C-section. Because of the risk of infection with my water being broken for quite a while, plus I apparently have an odd bone shape and a small pelvis. She felt around and thought the baby was around 7 lbs., and all those factors were reasons to want to do a C-section, rather than wait until something got bad and it became an emergency situation.
So they got me prepped, got the OR prepped. I was a basketcase, it's kind of scary. The bright lights, being awake, knowing you are being cut open!! They put up a sheet so you can't see anything, and they increase the epidural drip, so you can't feel the pain, but you can still feel a little bit of pressure and movement. And as the Dr. put it, when they take him out, you feel a bit of a "tug and a pull." I honestly could never explain how weird of a feeling it is to be able to feel people rooting around inside of you while you are awake! Words can't describe. Thank God my husband is AMAZING, and was allowed in there. Without him, I would've been a mess. He held my one hand, and had his other hand on my forehead, which kind of helped to calm me down.
Everybody is healthy and good now. Although the recovery from a C-section is often far more painful than a regular delivery, so my incision site is VERY sore, and it was hard to get out of bed, walk, even go to the bathroom. But it's getting better. I really didn't think I could handle it at first. I felt like I couldn't enjoy my baby boy, couldn't take care of him, because hell, I couldn't even take care of myself!! I'm sad I didn't get the chance to have him vaginally, so please don't ask about it. I feel a little robbed or the experience, especially b/c it's my first baby. I didn't CHOOSE to have this C-section, and believe it or not, it's NOT taking the easy way out. My mom has had both. She defines the difference as after having a vaginal, you are SORE. After having a C, you are in PAIN. And I have been in massive pain ever since I had him. It was definitely not my choice to have a C-section, they felt it was a medical necessity. So don't judge me, and please don't brag about delivering your child naturally....it's a very touchy subject for me, and makes me very emotional.
But we are both healthy. And that is what really matters most.

Last childless weekend

Sooooo I haven't really been updating this like I wanted.
I've been rather exhausted the last couple weeks.

If baby Logan doesn't decide to come on his this weekend, we have an appt. set for Monday morning at 6:30am to get induction started.
A lot of people started making comments about how early that is to me, which has me a little confused. Doctors choose to induce for many reasons, and he does have some (I'll get back to that in a minute). And Monday is the 13th. My EDD is the 19th. So it's not even a week earlier than my 40 wk due date. They don't HAVE to wait until after your EDD to decide induction might be a good idea.
And back to reasons. You don't have to agree with why we chose this path, I don't care. I would've liked him to come on his own, but I am the only person who understands the pain I am going through.

I have been having true contractions for almost 2 months now. They didn't really hurt until recently, but they are definitely uncomfortable. I also developed really terrible back pain in the last 4 week or so. So bad I couldn't find a comfortable position to sit, stand, or lie down in. I had to go to the hospital for the pain and get shots of Demerol a few times. The baby is most likely pushing on my sciatic and other nerves. Think I'm a sissy if you want, but only I know how bad MY pain is, and it has gotten excruciating at times. And now, last but not least. I didn't tell many people, because it sounds kind of gross, but oh well, I don't care.
A couple of weeks ago, my stomach started itching really bad. I chalked it up to dry skin. You have a tendency to dehydrate faster than normal when pregnant, and this can include your skin drying out. Well, a day or two went by, and it got wayyyy worse. Developed into a bad rash. Only on my belly though. I looked it up online, and turned up a likely answer, although something I never heard/read about. It's called PUPPs disease, or PUPPs rash. It only occurs in less than 1% of pregnant women (lucky me). You can google it if you want more info. It's basically harmless to the mother and child, they don't really know what causes it. But it can spread pretty fast, and really itches, and sometimes is even painful. Trying not to scratch is nearly impossible. I was told I could take some Benadryl, and to put Calamine lotion on it. It helps for a little while, but not long. And it has spread over quite a bit of my stomach, and can even spread onto other body parts. It usually goes away shortly after delivery. But in addition to my contractions I've been having for months, the back pain, and now the spreading rash, my Dr. thinks it would be find to induce me at 39weeks 1 day.
So that is why we are doing this this 'so early.'
I literally scratched a few spots so hard I made the skin raw. It hurts. If you didn't have this or don't get this when you are pregnant you are very lucky. Mine is so bad. On top of all the other pains of pregnancy this one is super irritating and can drive you to the brink of insanity. It's like chicken pox.....but 10 times worse. In my opinion anyway.

So anyway.
I'm still dilated at over 2 cm, and effaced at over 50%, so my Dr. said we are fine to induce on Monday.

GTG for now, I will post again later maybe.