WTF?

So I'm not really even sure why or what just triggered it, but I totally just had like an "oh shit" moment.
For some odd reason I totally just randomly panicked about not being ready for the baby. I know that's normal, but it hit me completely out of nowhere, and plus I haven't even had my shower yet...
So I'm not sure what's up with that, but yeah.
I know I've got some bigger items I need and whatnot, and we have plenty of hand-me-downs, plus other new clothes. I'm not really sure what I think I'm missing that's got me freaked out. And I've got a great family that helps and buys me stuff and all.
I guess it's just that moneys been tight lately with me working less. And things I thought were going to be paid off aren't going quite as planned. For whatever reason, my last car payment (6/13) is wayyyyy higher than my normal monthly payments. I thought it would be the same. I could have sworn I paid any interest I owed because of deferred payments or whatever, but apparently not. And now my last car payment is a good $200 more than what my regular monthly payments were. I'm pissed.
PLUSSSSSS not to mention it falls on a bad month. I have to get a new license this year. Which is horseshit, since I just got a new one last August after I got married. But I'm going to be 25 on june 30th, and my license expires. Plus I need new registration/tags. And I kinda wanted to do the 2 year regis. again. So that's like $525 or so for my last car payment. And like $125 or so for my new license and a 2 yr registration. At least E-check is still free currently. Don't ask why if you don't live in Ohio.....we have mandatory E-check, and you used to have to pay like $20 bucks for it, but for the last couple years b/c of a law change or something it's been free. So thank God.
But yeah, all that stress plus normal bills, plus wanting to get more diapers and baby stuff has me freaking a little. I don't know. I know my fam and friends will help out all they can, but honestly EVERYONE is so strapped for cash with the economy and the job situations and all.....so I don't know....
I'm just having a freakout moment I suppose. Hopefully everything will turnout fine. I mean it basically always does, but still, I worry.
Must be part of the nesting/pre-baby panicking stuff that people go through. *Sigh*
I mean I have clothes and washcloths and towels and bottles. I have furniture at both my house and my mom's. I guess maybe it's more the expense of the diapers and shampoos and soaps and wipes and all that have me panicked b/c I don't have that much of that stuff yet, you know?
Hopefully after the shower on Saturday my fears will be eased a little bit. Even though the turnout isn't going to be very big :-(
And only 1 single person from work even bothered to RSVP. (out of almost 15) WTF?
Still so irritated about people not RSVPing.
Anywho, I think a fattening snack and mindless TV might help, so that's where I'm going now.